bo burnham has an incorrigible habit: whenever i finish a song of his, i'm either laughing, or faced with a deep existential feeling that never quite goes away. that funny feeling starts off that way. stunning 8K resolution meditation app, he begins, and i've already started to think about the juxtaposition of 8K, meditation, and app, and i'm already behind him as he starts his third line. this is a reason why it's one of my favourite songs of his, not only from inside, but overall, and why i was elated when i found out today that it's actually not that difficult to play on a ukulele. 100% worth all the time i spent being frustrated over chords F and G (they're horrible). hey, what can you say? we were overdue, but it'll be over soon, just wait. (listen to it.)

every day, when i get ready to go to college (~07;00), i see my uke, and feel a very overwhelming desire to skip college just so i can sit and play it all day (i don't know what that says about my current subjects, the fact that college is in the morning, or just the nature of art. or maybe, the curtains are just blue.) i realise, as i'm writing this blog, that it'd be nice if other people read it and feel nice, sam mentioned that the personal touch is particularly soft, but mostly i do just want to log how i'm feeling so that i know what i was doing now when i grow up and read this later. i also realise that i wish i'd've learned more uke in my first two years, but i didn't, and i think this thought process of ours is just another way of fetishising our potential, without realising that of course we won't do the best we can, especially at this age, when we're still figuring ourselves out, it's okay. ereyesterday, i was talking to ishita about prashant and nikhilesh sirs, and how i was trying to make the most of their presence while they were here, asking them questions that weren't even remotely related to the syllabus or point at hand, just so i could learn while i had the opportunity. tl;dr, be proud of the things you did do, and try to now do the things you didn't, i think, is the best way to live.

i have nothing special to end today's post on, except listen to art you love! and make some, whatever makes you happiest. just strumming a C makes me feel many, many times happier about myself, and i cannot recommend it enough if you've never started, or lost touch, or whatever else it may be. the best time to plant a tree was twenty years ago. the second best time is now. good night :)