pauses
11 nov, 2024
breathe with me:
in
out
in
out
i've been noticing and observing content that lets you breathe, a la slow movement, and i'm beginning to appreciate it more. cinemastix referred to miyazaki's ma
, a part of a story that breathes, and has no plot significance, except to let you live through the character. a necessary stillness inserted within the action,
he says. we have a subconscious tendency to equate time with significance, hence the "did you even work?" attitude associated with automation (not just externally).
i've mostly succeeded on moving away from short-form, and have reached a stage where i feel i am more in control of my attention span. i've trained on the hardest difficulty (in college; empty house; no family around) and being with family and friends and actually having things to do has made me realise how far i've come. i tend to get lost in the moment more often; no more unconscious tendencies to open and scroll, and is this it? am i carpe diem'ing? did we make it? being the guy with the aux is a disadvantage now: the phone with speaker connection will always reach me, but if i've prepped enough it doesn't have to be mine. and i get what people have been saying to me for a while now. it does help to breathe independently. the next step seems to be doing things by themselves, without anything else to distract me, letting my thoughts live and my brain process.
it helps to have a plan.