the first time i made my way from college to where i'd be living for the next three years, trying to figure out public transportation because i needed to know how i was going to be commuting every day (relying on mumbai public transport, which has never disappointed me), i remember stumbling into this very new place, with just a bag and not even a pillow or blanket, just happy to have a bed i can rest on, in this very new place. you never know how important things are going to be you until they simply are, and you take stock of your life and think: “oh; i love you, don't i.” i suppose that is the way it must be.
endings have never been truly so impactful to me, because there's always something else to look forward to. i loved this period of my life, and i had fun, but on to the next! there's something beautiful about monotony and having something for such a long period of time that it becomes second nature, but i suppose there's something to be said about change, too. i haven't yet had the experience to decide what will be my second nature. i hope that my next daily routine helps me learn it even better.
all things said, though, and looking at what my days have been like over the past three years, i'm content. i have had experiences i couldn't have dreamed of, and i am thankful to everyone who has given me those, and i have rarely dreaded a new day. i don't know how much more you can ask for. as i look towards a new ending, i wind up thinking again: what will i miss? what have i seen, and felt? how beautiful has it been? and the answer is, very, very much.
this ending will be more significant to me, because it will be more final than any others have ever been. i don't know when, if ever, i will meet most of these people again. i will certainly miss them, you, when i find something that reminds me of you and i think about you, like it always is. i hope we don't forget each other too soon. i hope you had fun, because i really did, and i hope you don't forget to call me when you see strawberries being sold on the roadside.
-an end of line patient, on life